i want to leave my spoiled brat of God attitude...

God, had been gracious to me... When in times of trouble, I've had good times and bad times, yet he had put me in somewhere which is for my current sight a quite a considerable and gracious spot in life for a procrastinator like me... More than that, I really want a way out of this uninvesting of his treasures habit, in which my knowledge wasn't been givin' back to people me, or am I askin' too much for myself... Also, I have this scary decision to make... and really needing guidance from God...