Got formerly, displaced before from Catholicism

Let this be not a unproductive rant, but a "something" that will move anyone to a betterment state, or at least to better mindset, in some level of thought...

My former religion indeed is Catholicism...

Just now, I learned it is not that bad... (oww, my thesis suddenly come into my mind... Lord, may this be a prayer) (if this sounds too hypocrital, then may this be a fellowship, )

So into my "fellowship-form-of-prayer"

Dear God my appreciation to Catholism (from Catholicos, greek word for "universal"), yet the repetitiveness of things in it suddenly displaced my actions of it towards other necessary things... what I meant was, I'd rather do something else repetitively that make a thoughtless repetition of a relationship with God... let me explain... I have prayed last night (w/ my mom) to an adoration chapel... so let's say I still recall my former religion... I read what's there, (of course, there's this hey wow like a prodigal son feeling whoopee) so the interest, and heart was a bit more elevated...

Then again, I read the readables, I got 1 of the symbolic objects... prayed the "protocol" but then again, if this was a itu standard, or a program, I would really appreaciate it way, way more than how I appreciated it last night... So in a sense, I with all due respect, whew-fully say I finished upto the first joyful mystery. Also, I appreciated the formats, and all that... but then again "the passion" could have been channeled to a bit slighter productive if not far enourmously better means...

Pls... forgive me for any unconscious and conscious mistake I made to anything, moreover to anyone...